BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS WANTS ORDER - milkypossum.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : Mia Noelle Cedeno
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Mia Noelle Cedeno
[00:10.330]Please, don't tell me what you think I want to hear,
[00:12.520]So hard to feel like a bad person for the last few ****ing years,
[00:15.160]I want to scream and yell and throw a fit and run amok,
[00:17.850]But you can't seem to listen, all you want to do is ****.
[00:21.010]I hate that when I jump you tell me "DO IT TEN MORE TIMES!",
[00:23.680]Give me that reassurance and then backtrack into lies,
[00:26.340]Hand me the map and mark it up so much it hurts my eyes,
[00:28.870]Then take it back when I find treasure as a fun surprise!
[00:31.900]'Keep falling into circles I'll cut off my ****ing head',
[00:34.260]I should have listened to the shit I wrote, not you instead,
[00:37.080]'Why does it hurt to love you?'
[00:39.040]( Now I know)I was never insane, I suffered catering to you.
[00:44.910]I can't cope in a healthy way I put the blame on me,
[00:47.550]Denial is so pretty 'til it's all that you can see,
[00:50.240]Like Tetris blocks we're falling faster every time it's wrong,
[00:52.930]Let's build our perfect future, light the fuse and throw the bomb.
[00:55.520]Please rope me in some more so you can say I'm not enough,
[00:58.180]I'll walk around blindfolded, let you put me in a cuff,
[01:00.900]I'll trust your every word knowing that something else is there,
[01:03.560]Respect is earned, but in your eyes I could never compare.
[01:06.390]Tell me more about the kind of future that we had,
[01:09.000]Let's all laugh together like it's not all ****ing bad,
[01:11.740]Tell me how you're different from the rest, you have a plan,
[01:14.350]Don't forget to pretend like I ever stood a chance!
[01:17.020]Tell me why it's my fault so you can remove the blame,
[01:19.630]I'll hold your accusations so you never feel the pain,
[01:22.240]My family is worried, say I'm doing way too much,
[01:24.830]Please treat me gently, bandage me, then kick away the crutch.
[01:27.600]Got voices in your ears none of them are ever yours,
[01:30.160]Incapable of thought beyond the work you wont ignore,
[01:32.850]The times I shared my feelings you say I have BPD,
[01:35.540]months later getting tested just to find that isn't me.
[01:38.150]Shill me illegal medication, making me insane,
[01:40.870]So long as I can spread my legs you'll love me just the same,
[01:43.480]You drown me under labels never take me as I am,
[01:46.200]tool of convenience for you when life is not as planned.
[01:48.970]Life lessons work like circles, coming back to bring up hell,
[01:51.580]Looking back at your work, it seems you know this path too well,
[01:54.190]I can't say I'm surprised when I step back, connect the dots,
[01:56.960]Keep running away, ending up in the exact same spots.
[01:59.520]Give me a list of expectations one thousand feet long,
[02:02.210]And when I trip make sure you yell, don't help me move along.
[02:04.770]Make sure you say the things to keep me ignorant and blind,
[02:07.560]Then say that you're the victim once you go and change your mind.
[02:10.150]Let's build our lives together full immersion at the time,
[02:12.840]You think that what I do not know could never be a crime,
[02:15.510]Please lead me on and let still continue building trust,
[02:18.170]So you can call and tell me you might give into your lust.
[02:20.760]I'm picking up the remnants of our life fully alone,
[02:23.530]It's easier to run instead of face your fears at home,
[02:26.220]Pose impatience as gut feelings and spew it onto me,
[02:28.780]leaving a trail of garbage but it's fine because you're free.
[02:31.730]So much I want to tell you, now you've gone and run away,
[02:34.210]I spent two years in limbo feeling like I've gone insane,
[02:36.930]My therapist is scared she said I cannot hold it all,
[02:39.490]But I kept putting myself down for something that would fall.
[02:42.120]I'm sorry to myself, I should have never done that much,
[02:45.020]Beautiful Princess wants order, you leave in a rush,
[02:47.560]When all is said and done I don't regret playing the game,
[02:50.250]A beautiful princess can grow and you will stay the same.